I have a tendency to check out. Sometimes, I don't even recognize that it has happened. But, a calendar tells me that a month has gone by and I have no clean underwear. It is something that I'm working on, the ability to stay engaged and present in my day to day life, but it's hard.
I checked out pretty hard this past Fall. I was broken and sad. Unfortunately, I was also selfish and disrespectful. And I am not proud of some of my actions, or situations that I put myself in. And I was a terrible friend. And for that, I wholeheartedly apologize. I have no excuse. I hate to admit that I am fallible when it comes to friendships. But I do unintentionally hurt others sometimes.