I read the DSM so you don't have to

I'm really trying to focus on perspective change, to remember that this is my experience. To listen to advice that I give others, which includes the cliched "this is our only chance, take advantage of it, be indulgent". I come in and out of it. I keep rallying back to the positive with a much quicker turn around time than I used to. But, it makes me feel as if I come across as bipolar II* (hypo-mania and depression) or insincere. And I know I need to stop caring. But when I continually act as one minute lar, next minute lar, it's no wonder I find it hard to sustain romantic relationships. In the past three days, I have sent Orange (the boy who is not Miguel) three very different text messages. All of them meant in sincerity at the time, but the sum total makes me look as if I am rapid cycling.

But, I just want you to know,gentle readers, that it is truly a function of me trying to readjust my view. With a healthy dose of hormones thrown in for good measure.

*I like to say that this knowledge comes from my psychopathology class last year. I like to say it, but...